I loved
Yehuda Berg's Weekly Consciousness Tune-Up this week, courtesy
The Kabbalah Centre mailings.
It's about time travel and about becoming conscious of correcting things we did wrong in our past, specifically childhood.
She mentioned a friend who was guilt ridden over what he'd done as a kid and a teenager -- bullying other people and the damage that may have inflicted on them for life. Ironically, he is now bullying himself over it, beating himself up daily fearful of everything from the reprucussions it will have on his victims to the karma that he has coming his way.
So the bullying hasn't stopped at all really.
We have to dig down at the root, become more aware of what we're doing and right the wrong.For me, I'd say I'm still haunted by the blueprint I created for mentally breaking down straight guys when I was in high school to talk them into messing around with me sexually. One of whom, I fell in love with and ended up hurting his sense of self severely over the course of about a year.
That's a real tough one because there's a
root of the root even. A lot of times you have to keep asking,
'Why did I do this?' or 'Why am I doing this?' to get to the bottom of it.
The root here is that I wanted to change people, make them into what I wanted them to be to suit my own selfish purpose and agenda. This is something that I'm sorry to say hasn't changed. Though I am no longer manipulative or damaging to others, I certainly am to myself, often seeing people as I want them to be instead of as they are.
The root of the root: What made me do it in the first place was the circuitry of people wanting to change me. Family members wanting me to like basketball more than singing. People wanting me to be straight instead of gay, quiet instead of loud, repressed instead of expressed.
To not need other's approval has been a great step for me in overcoming that root problem. And when I am able to stop feeling the pressure to change who I am, I can stop wanting to change others.
What wrongs do you need to right from your past? What has followed you to today?
One of the 72 Names of God,
Time Travel (see photo above) is great to meditate upon while coming to these conclusions in your life.
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